Drake <333

sooo. i've been up on dude for a while now && his mixtape was highly anticipated . I downloaded it last week && can't get enough. So if you haven't downloaded it you are late && you probably should before everybody starts talkin about it && you aint up on it you late summa bitch. My fave songs on here are definitely -drumroll-

Successful ft. Trey Songz (shout out to VA lol)
Uptown ft. Bun B & Lil Wayne
A Night Off ft. Lloyd (yes , the dude is amazing, he even has babymakers on this mixtape lol)
Say Whats Real (beat sounds familiar , no? shout out to Kanye lol)
Sooner or Later (it's personal , for me)
&& Last but certainly not least...
Best I Ever Had
Now go listen . U'll truly be missing out if you don't .

Happy Birthday DiTi !!

Happy 21st birthday to my BESTiE DiTi <333
sorry i couldn't be there fam .. but i love you and i hope u have a great day !!!

Sweaty Black Rose Queen .

My boy Don Jon wrote this ... i loved it so i wanted to post it for all of u as well :)




To my brown skinned, wide eyed, Diamond in the rough—
Make a skinny brotha wanna act all tough, and poke out his chest
Walk around like “BOOM GIRL! HOW YOU LOVE DEM PECKS?”

See Black sistuh, theres so much I can learn from you:
I’m about to submit an application to your souls' University:
And after a few, undecided semesters, I wanna declare LOVE as my major.
And graduate Magna Cum Laude from that mothaf*cka!
I’ll walk the front lawn of the University in the nude chanting its alma mater:
“Sweaty Black Rose Queen, i gotta have it. Yes, Sweaty black rose queen i gotta have it”
*(Which of course will be written by me! It'll have a gospel feel to it)

Woman, I Wanna see what you see, hear what you hear, FEEL what you FEEEEEEEL!

*(Stress the “FEEEEEEEL” part because if I was performing this live, my voice would get extraordinarily high pitch - and I’d go “Feee-eeeel” and the ladies in the audience would be like ‘ooh Don Jon, you so sensually sensitive’, then the bongo player would pick up the rhythm again)

So woman, hold my strong ashy hands, the gesture alone letting you know that everything will be alright. So long as you don’t attempt to moisturize them.

Did you know my brown skinned, wided eyed Diamond in the rough-

YOU
ARE
LOVE.

(Then I drop the paper I'm reading from, tussle my afro and walk off stage)

Newest Edition to the Fam :)

my baby cousin Russell Jr. <333

Poor Scarlet.

hmm. i'm embarrassed for her.

Higher Learning .

There's beauty in depth. There's a beauty in knowledge that surpasses anything materialistic. There's a guiding light in history, the passionate struggle of those before us who are the very reason for what we are able to accomplish today. It's because of the people before us who had an endless curiosity to find those things that we take for granted today. Never feel less then somebody because you wanted to "know". Knowledge is power. In knowing, you possess in your hands the ability to change. The ability to make things better for a helpless generation. We all have a responsibility to change a life. And in knowledge this is possible. Remember all those before who helped you. We don't realize just how many people struggled for us, from JESUS all the way to Barack Obama. I'm not comparing the two, i'm just mentioning that Jesus allows for you to have eternal life, and Barack Obama has just broken racial barriers that just 10 years ago said couldn't be done. It is in their struggle that your dreams are possible. It is through GOD and your prayer that you are able. Able to do what ever it is in your heart that you feel that you need to do. Knowing GOD and having an undeniable faith brings a whole new meaning to the term "higher learning". Always believe. It is through GOD and faith that all things are possible.

blog surfing .

Today i was bored. My cousin left the title to a blogspot on a sheet of paper next to my laptop. I didn't know who the author of the blog was, or what the blog would even be about but the blog is entitled "About Something Real" . Seems interesting enough. So i visit the blog, and i don't know who dude is but his blog is AMAZING . He gives insights into a man's thoughts and it's beautiful. I don't know who he is but two of his poems had me crying. It amazes me how men and women fail to understand each other 99% of the time, but our feelings about things run practically parallel. We just go about it differently, and that's where the confusion comes in. One quote in particular really touched me, it said: "it's a shame, when Love leaves the heart, Life leaves the man." This goes for me as well. Heartbreak, not just from intimate relationships, but from friendships, parents, lies, betrayal, rejection all caused me to be a little cold hearted. I'm starting to find myself again, renewing myself from my sudden identity crisis that i have suffered for the last couple of years, and it feels so good to find myself again. It really felt like love left me. I didn't want to love, i was scared to love, my heart had really grown cold. I had convinced myself that love = pain, and i didn't want to feel the pain anymore, my heart had grown brick. Now my heart is back to the place it once was, the stone has been shattered and i'm ready to love again. I'm ready to fight for what i want, and i'm ready to open my heart. I've known death. I've never physically died, but my emotions were killed. I was in a state of purgatory, no heaven, no hell just waiting. It was like i was unattached to the world. Now i find myself fighting for a place in heaven && I'm alive again.

False Advertising .

So i'm watching the Superbowl yesterday, when this shit comes on:

Cute commercial ; although are they trying to say that people will stay young if they drink Pepsi? Unless 'young' somehow now means rotten teeth and blubber butt this is so crazy to me . This is why 1/3 of lil kids are morbidly obese . I mean, i drink soda sometimes, but c'mon now everybody knows it's bad for you . They tryna make it seem like Pepsi holds the fountain of youth inside it's bubbles ... -smfh-

This is just turrble . lol .

I just wanna know what crazy girl did he mess with to totally change his views . lol . See it only takes one BiTCH to mess up a good one . -smh-