Quote of the Week

LOL.
Sooo since i did the "Pet Peeve" i might as well follow up with a quote too ...

"There will come a time when you believe everything is finished. That will be the beginning."

Amen to that ...

Fave Thing of the Week

so what is my Fave Thing of the week:



Adele !
She is so soulful, and her lyrics are just great.
She's 19 i think && she's from England.
She has so much talent...

Songs to Jam to:
1) Best For Last
2) Daydreamer
3) Chasing Pavements
4)First Love
5) Crazy for you ...

enjoy :)

i'd rather go blind

"something deep down in my soul said: cry girl"

ABDC season TROiS !

BEAT FREAKS && STRiKERS ALL STARS .. LET'S GET iT !

RiNGMASTERS .. i like them alot but they freak me out .

QUEST CREW ; i like them too, but i need to see more .

btw...are the SAS crew members of Omega Psi Phi ??

gold boots ?

i think so !

&& i must say that i liked TEAM MiLLENiA'S performance as well :)

slooooooooooooooooow.

new jamie foxx .

luvs it <333

"and imma wild out on u, like i dont give a fuck"

lol, oh aite !

Sincere

Sooo i really wish i knew how to make it so that these songs could play automatically, but i can't unfortunately, so instead i'm just going to post the link to my friend Sincere's myspace to listen to his tracks. You definitely must check them out. His style is soooo different, and i really like what he's doing, so i decided to support him in any way i could. "When i Ball women cheer" is the first one && the beat is definitely a head bopper. lmao . I am really feelin that track, and "Players Story" is a laid back track. For some reason it reminds me of Warren G's regulaters, lmao. But the lyrics are definiely catchy and the chorus will get stuck in your head, in a good way ! Lol. So yeah go listen .. thanks !

www.myspace.com/11sdub

On && On

great song from a familiar face ...

Life . Love . Heartbreak .

On the looooooong ride to Richmond i had a lot to think about while my uncle was talkin my head off about his new girlfriend. I didn't mean to tune him out, but i had so many other things on my mind. I have never been so confused about what i want in all my life. There's friends i'm thinking about disposing of, and people i took for granted that i desperately want back. There's a dude who i wasn't really gone off at first, now i'm like outer space gone for this dude, && the shit is tearing me up inside. Then there's school. I'm so relieved to be back, but ever since i've been sitting in my room i've been feeling down && blue. Maybe its just PMS, but there were so many hopes i had for if i stayed at home. I had convinced myself that i wasn't going anywhere, now i'm ghost. It's official that i'm not the same girl that i once was. I used to want to be strong, now i just want to live. I want to feel things. I've shut my emotions off SO much in the past. It was better to not face my problems if i just convinced myself that i didn't have any. Trouble is, i DO have them, but that's not who i am. Majority of my problems aren't even things i can control, but once i control what i can shit will come together. Like dude...personally i've never regretted not saying something to a dude. But him, i feel like i let a good one slip right thru my butterfingers cause i didn't try harder. He was one of them dudes that i knew, if i gave him the power to, could crush me. And because of that i never even gave him the chance to feel me cause i immediatly shut myself off from him knowing that he could devastate me. In that being closed off to hurt, i closed my off to love. Even if it hadn't of worked out @ least i would've had fun. I've never met anybody to make me want to swallow all of my pride, and trust me, if you knew me you'd know how crazy that is! It's so hard for me to humble myself w/ people that could hurt me, cause usually when i trust people, they definitely abuse it && i got sick of the hurt. But at least i was loving, at least i knew what that felt like. At least i had a heart. Now i'm crying out like the tin man cause i just want to love again. I hope he's not just a lesson. But if he is, damn how life can be so cruel !

Torn .

For a while there i didn't think i'd be returning to VCU this semester. It was the most confusing emotion i've ever felt. I didn't want to go back, cause when i'm there all i do is struggle. There are some good times, but i struggle with classes && finances && friendships. Then i thought about not going back, and i started crying [lol]. It was like i didn't want to go or stay, but i can't help but feel sad when i think about either choice. Sooo it all comes down to this. The uncles called me && cursed me out. However, they are hustling up 3k to get me back in school. I guess it just goes to show that somebody out there believes in me, && God isn't going to let me ruin this blessing as well. Hopefully it all works out. For a second there all i could think about how broke i was and how hard it is w/out money. But all college students are broke, so i just need to shut the fuck up about that one . && then i got to thinking about a friend of mine in college, who i won't name, but SHOULD cause she's fantastic. She has no car, but she's living off campus (paying all of her bills), working a job (which she walks too daily, and she's lost madd weight and i think its from all that walking she does), and is a hectic interior design student ! She always makes the best of her situation, && she is a strong female ! I need to hang with her because i need to surround myself with people like that more often ! I don't know when i got so siddity, or felt that i was entitled to certain stuff, cause i'm really not. And why cant i just do it myself? I'm 21. i should be able to do it myself ... && i'm going to .